For the rest of the day. lol.

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Polyvore is my new crack. lol.

♥ 11:27 AM

in the mail today....but I'm not. I HATE....God said don't hate so.......I DISLIKE SCHOOL VERY MUCH!

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My sister and our friend Folu have been looking for a house to rent but EVERYTIME we find a house somehow were never able to get it. This has happened to 3 houses and we've been looking for 2 months now. Im starting to take this as a sign from God that he must not want me Washington, DC for too much longer. Everything that has happened to me including heartbreak is seeming like a sign from God that he wants me else where. My main excuse on staying up here was for me to be accepted into a Doctorate program somewhere before I decide where I'm gonna go. But I don't even know for sure anymore if I want to go to get my Doctorate. My sister is probably gonna move too since she found out her now Ex-boyfriend has been married for the past year...(thats another story to tell another day) so wherever I go she is probably gonna come...which is a plus cause my sis and I are really close. I just don't know what to do. Prayfully God will point me in the right direction soon cause its starting to make me stress out. The top 5 places if I choose to leave DC are: Miami, ATL, LA, NY, or take my country ass back to Mississippi. The good about all these cities is that I have some type of Family there and/or friends. But the con is that I will miss all my friends here in DC. Ugh! this sucks ass. I don't want to be a grownup anymore. ~:x

♥ 3:21 PM



I stole these from my friend girl Jennifer's myspace.





Where is Jade?


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Gotta love Banaboogie for putting me on to this light blue nail polish. Even though Im not suppose to rock it working at my government job I do it anyway!

♥ 11:57 AM



Well I didn't get to see the second installment of "Black in America" cause I fell asleep at 7pm. lol. But from all the blog posts I've read the general consensus is what I said last post. Its just a repeat of what "WE" already know. It didn't offer any solutions or show the advancements that we as a people have made. But I'll let y'all form y'all's own opinions about the show.

♥ 2:15 AM



Okay......If you watched the CNN last night you know you would have seen......."Black In America". I totally forgot it was on so I didn't start watching until 10 PM. So what I did watch left me feeling........I dunno. I have no idea how it left me feeling. The show was already pointing out things that we as "Black Americans" see everyday. We know that black women have children out of wedlock; that black male homicides are more frequent than any other minority or majority; Black women are starting to date outside of their race because a lot of black men aren't into dating sistas who have their own money and etc. To me this program just shows the rest of the world what the "Black American" community deals with on a daily basis. I will be watching the todays showing. What do ya'll think of CNN's "Black America"?

♥ 10:23 AM





Im IN LOVE!!!

With Polyvore

I <3 planning out my outfits. ^_^

♥ 3:30 PM



I saw bestest on Monday for the first time in 6 months. Was it awkward? A little. Was I nervous? Hell Yeah. lol. Of course I tried to play it off but he was nervous too. Why do we get nervous around each other but can tell each other EVERYTHING. lol. He asked me to be the Godmother to his child. I was completely shocked. All types of questions were running through my mind...."Does his babymama/girlfriend/wife know that he wants me to be the Godmother?"...."Does she approve?"....."Is she only approving of it cause she doenst want to upset him?". Not until last night did I tell him that I wasnt feeling comfortable with being his child's Godmother. I wasnt really able to explain to him why cause after 2 calls and a voice message left on his phone he never got back in contact with me. So I ended up sending him a text. I hate sending texts like cause you never know how the other person receiving the txt will interpret what you are conveying. The reply that I got back from him was..."Okay thats fine." I know he wants to know a detailed explanation of why I dont feel comfortable about being his child's Godmother but I reckon I'll just have to wait to hear from him.

♥ 12:16 PM



Back up ur hard drive... I have come to realize...well I've always known I was a "Back Up", "Insurance", "Wifey Material". I was reading Lola's blog today (Which I visit everyday cause she is da coolest. Lol.) and realized that a lot of girls who were the tomboys, good girls, artsy girls, and vow to stay a virgin until married girls were and maybe still are considered a lot of guy's "Back ups". I for one am considered a "Back Up". For most of these girls and me including their guy friends and guys that they used to "talk too" but never committed too see them as "Back ups". These guys might not realize that we know this but it is very evident to us. As long as I can remember I was "the one" they could see marrying and having their children. But none of them would date me cause to them I was the one they wanted to treat right and marry so therefore if we did date and it didn't work out their "Back up" would no longer be existent. The same goes with the guys I used to "Talk too" but would never commit too me. These are the guy friends that I hear from every 2 to 3 months calling to see how I'm doing....and try to ease the question "Are you dating anyone?" without coming out and bluntly saying those words. In middle school I was never boy crazy even though I look back now and realize a lot of the boys I would draw tattoos for were crushing on me. I just thought they liked my art. Anyway, in high school I still wasn't boy crazy. I decided even when I was in middle school that I would never date "seriously" with anyone until I reached the age in which I was thinking about marriage. So in highschool I decided to just have fun (be a playa). I knew that there were boys who liked me but I would never give them the opportunity to take our friendship any further cause I wasn't looking for a serious relationship. My sister even told one guy friend after he approached her by asking if I would be down with becoming exclusive with him....her exact reply to him, "Jade is only gonna play you". Lol. My sister only told him the truth cause before him I had already left 2 guys in the dust with bruised hearts.



I'm not gonna lie. I do have "back ups" of my own. I think every woman has that man in the wings that would end things with his baby momma/ or dump his current "chick" to be with you. But for me I've decided to get rid of all my "Back ups" and just continue to be their homegirl for life without thinking ,"If it doesn't work out with__________ I still got _________".

♥ 10:52 AM



Starting today...I will stop with a the bullshit posts. I reckon I havent been putting the real "Jade" out there. But starting today that will all change.

♥ 10:01 AM



Went to Nordstrom and fell in love.
Wasnt able to cop them but as soon Dede, Folu, & I get our house. Their all mine. lol.
But I would be greatly appreciative if someone wants to buy them for me. (i.e. "L.A.M.B Nayuata")
Lol.




♥ 11:43 PM



I've come to dislike my relaxed hair. I dont know anyone who has relaxed hair like my sister's & I's hair.

Pros about my relaxed hair:
It doesnt fizz
It doesnt require alot of moisture
It is easier to manage.

Cons about my relaxed hair:
It wont hold curls (ie. hot rollers, roller sets, curling irons,& etc.)
Its just lays flat no matter what I do with it!
It splits and damages really easily

According to my mother and by recollection of my hair at the ages of birth to 6 years of age I remember my mother getting frustrated with my sister and I's hair. lol. I distinctly remember my mother hot combing my hair while in my Grandma's kitchen and her burning me several times. lol. My mother just wanted a better way to deal with our hair.

This is a picture of my au natural hair. I whink I was 4 when this picture was taken.


I got my first relaxer when I was either 5 or 6. I think I was 5 cause I was still in Preschool. My mom got tired of trying to manage my sister and I's natural hair cause it was really soft and curly (similar to "Mixed girl" hair). So she decided that she would relax it. My mom got a lot of heat from my aunts, grandmothers, and other family members for relaxing our hair so young. But I couldn't blame my mother she had 2 daughters whom she had to do their hair EVERY morning and evening.

This is a picture of me when I was 5 years old. I was graduating from Preschool here. My mom hot combed it for this picture.

After I got my hair relaxed when I was 6 years old my mom would braid & moisturize my sister's and I's hair EVERY night before we went to bed. During the summer when we would go swimming...either it be a chlorine pool or pond in the pasture she would coat our hair in cholesterol so it wouldnt get damaged and she was also use a special shampoo that would take the chlorine out of our hair. Overall my mom did a great job with our hair.

I have NEVER worn weave or "weave braids" in my hair. My hair has always been fragile and sensitive to anything pulling on it. Even during the summer when I would braid my natural hair and keeping it braided for just a little over a week upon washing it I would have severe damage and breakage. So I try to stay away from braids or anything of the sort. During the summer of 2000 I decided to grow out my hair and see if I could "handle" it. I approximately had about 4 inches of new growth within 3 months and was unable to control it. So I relaxed it prior to returning to school that following August. Looking back at that incident of "growing it out" I wasnt too keen on taking care of my hair. I would never tie it up when I slept or wash and moisturize it.

So every since I was 6 years old I've had relaxed hair but now I am truly thinking and considering going natural. My cousins Shea & Clare rock their natural styles and fierceness and confidence. The only qualm I have about going natural is what my natural hair will look like. I can barely remember the texture of it when I was child and maybe the 17 years of timely relaxers has changed the texture of my hair altogether.

Circa August 2005
Circa November 2005

Circa October 2006

Circa October 2006


Circa March 2007


This picture was taken last year on my Birthday (Sept. 26)




Up until a year ago I would get a relaxer about every 6 to 8 weeks. Even at 8 weeks my sister would be like, "You don't need a relaxer" "Your hair is still straight". But I did find out that getting a relaxer timely it prevented my hair from becoming damaged. But within the last year about the 3rd week prior to receiving a relaxer I would have at least 0.5 inch of new growth. Right now I have a little under 1 inch of new growth and it will have been 4 weeks since my last touch-up.

So I have come to the decision to TRY and grow my hair out. And see if I can handle it. Oh. I will NOT be cutting my length while growing my hair out. It would be WAYYYY to traumatic for me. Lol. So for the next month and a half I will be rockin this curly/straight look until I can come up with a definite decision about my hair.

Peace

♥ 10:44 AM



Okay I havent been blogging like I should be cause some of my venting that I used to do previously can be seen by people who didnt even know of this blog before. I dont know why I'm afraid to put stuff on here that someone might see and relate it to them or someone else. Anyhow I need to make up my mind on whether to trash this blog and start over somewhere else or just let this one live and blog about my life and not caring about who reads it. I reckon I do care about what people think more than I thought.

♥ 10:11 AM